I am a young woman, only 24 years old.
I have been working so hard to get free of myself (these fears/worries/troubles/problems) that
I didn’t realize I was binding myself further.
I didn’t realize I was draining the flavor out of life.
I didn’t realize that my constant trying was covering up my True Self.
I decided to make things complicated, like a puzzle I could stay up all night and figure out. But the truth is, the puzzle is nowhere near complete, I’m frazzled, and I need sleep.
I need to slow down.
Each and every day, we go out into the world trying to fix, trying to do. We engage in ceaseless activity, even when we are seemingly sitting and doing nothing. The mind is a tangle of doing and thinking and analyzing and moving and trying.
I once expressed my perennial restlessness to a yoga teacher, and she told me that instead of speeding up, I needed to slow down, sweet pea.
Unsurprisingly, I didn’t listen.
It’s only a couple of years later that I realize she is right. That slowing down reverses the life-sucking craziness of the day to day, of the need to achieve, of the desperate attempts to figure things out.
Sunlight streaming in through windows, oversized comfy sweaters, hot tea, fuzzy socks, a lavender candle and a favorite old book give us a time and space we can’t get in our 9-5 GO GO GO lifestyle.
I invite you to take some time this weekend to slow down. Relax and rest. If it feels good, start taking some time every day to do this. I don’t care if you sit and write, sit and read, sit and stretch, sit and stare. Just give your Self some time.
When you feel the inevitable fear that YOU SHOULD BE DOING, THINKING, WORKING, just smile and think, “Slow down, sweet pea.”
When you feel the inevitable fear that YOU FORGOT TO REST, OMG YOU’RE MAKING THINGS WORSE, just smile and think, “Slow down, sweet pea.”
When you feel like resting doesn’t matter and isn’t helping you because YOU MUST FIGURE THINGS OUT RIGHT NOW, just smile and think, “Slow down, sweet pea.”
As we start practicing and noticing what it feels like to slow down, we realize that it’s a gift. We realize that it is a way of living. A way of disengaging yourself from the tangle of doing and thinking and analyzing and moving and trying not just for a few minutes, or an hour, or a day, but forever.