One of my newest practices since taking courses with Pathways of Light is receiving messages from Holy Spirit. This is SUPER FUN and is really helpful to me. I wanted to share a divine download I received recently here. Can you tell that I often struggle with my path and knowing what it is I should do?
It’s really liberating for me to remember always that even though I’m blogging, and some may say “teaching,” it doesn’t mean I am some spiritual authority. I am legit learning every single day. My journey is difficult and messy as well as enlightening and fun. I’m trying to be open and honest here, to be my true self. Because that’s what the practice truly is, right? Learning how to be ourselves.
So here’s my message. I hope it’s helpful to you in some way, shape, or form. ♥
You’re freaking out right now. Have you noticed that this pattern of freak out and doubt comes up when things don’t go the way you wanted? It’s as though you’re doing well on your spiritual path when things are going OK, and you’re not really working it when you perceive things go bad–when you’re frustrated or sad or mean.
What this comes back to ultimately is I am bad. You try to cover it by saying “My path isn’t working, I have to find something else.” You’re just projecting onto Me and onto the Course. You turn it into something difficult, dark, and obscure in your mind and you think THIS MUST NOT BE THE WAY.
This means you haven’t found ‘the way’ yet and have to keep searching. This is what we would call a ‘senseless journey’. And what you don’t realize is that you’re crucifying yourself again. You are still the bad, flawed, betrayed Child of God who deserves the crown of thorns, the nails in your hands and feet, and despair in your heart.
Yet “The only message of the crucifixion is that you can over come the cross.” And look at the second line in that section: “You are free to crucify yourself as often as you choose.”
Don’t be fooled–this shows up in many ways, even in your spiritual work. Nothing you do is safe from ego and its interpretation.
You feel fear rise when I say this, but I don’t mean to scare you. What I’m trying to tell you is that ego’s thought system is complete. There is an answer for everything.
So your work, in turning from the ego’s thought system to that of peace, Love, and Holy Spirit is to question your illusions.
What you believe is true for you, so in the split second you believe an ego interpretation is true, you go straight to hell–you feel guilty, sad, sick, and powerless. You feel that guidance is an illusion.
But when you begin to question and stop rushing forward on the ego’s train to pain, you open up for a new way, a new path. You open up to patience, gentleness, and non-judgment. You open up, and you see Me standing in front of you, smiling. I am here always, guiding you.