Do you ever have that feeling that nothing is going right?
There are days when I want to simultaneously scream at the world and hide under the covers because my job isn’t right, my relationship isn’t right, my dreams aren’t right….because I’m not right.
And usually when this feeling comes up, I’m ready to do ANYTHING to get rid of it. I’ll buy a book, eat some ice cream, get a membership to the gym, call some friends, clean my room, mow the lawn…I’ll do anything to try to shake this feeling off.
But those things never seem to slough off that ugly grimy feeling that makes me want to jump out of my skin. And once I started on my spiritual path, I realize that none (read: none) of those things that I thought would make me feel better and get rid of that feeling. (Darn.)
I’ve found the only real secret to getting rid of this feeling is to…well, stop trying to get rid of it.
Which, I know, seems like sucky advice. Nobody wants to sit in this muck and stay there because then you just feel like crap, right?
When you have this feeling, you have to stand your ground. Rushing out to find something to cover up the feeling that nothing is right, that you aren’t right, simply reinforces the feeling.
In truth, you are right, and you affirm this when you stop trying to cover up the feeling. Instead, let it arise, and say to yourself: “I am not this feeling. In truth, I am perfect. I choose peace instead.”
In this way, you remain the observer. You become willing to detach from those emotions and energies that you always used to define as you. You watch as the wave of emotions go up, and you watch as they go down. And as you continue to watch, day in and day out, you will see that your core of peace begins to extend out into your daily experience.
In lesson 34 of the Workbook, Jesus tells us,
“Peace of mind is clearly an internal matter. It must begin with your own thoughts, and then extend outward. It is from your peace of mind that a peaceful perception of the world arises.”
So as we choose peace more and more, not only are we becoming more peaceful, but our world is too. Our thoughts change our perceptions which changes our world. (Yay!)
This means that when we start getting our minds right (in the words of the Captain from Cool Hand Luke) by choosing peace, our outer world begins to right itself.
But to take it even further, getting my mind right and choosing peace means that I feel peace even when the outer world continues to seem wrong. I shift the source of my peace from out there to in here, right in my heart. That’s where the secret to happiness is. That’s where I can always feel right when things around me feel wrong.
And the “right” feeling I’m talking about isn’t the one Jesus refers to when he says “Would you rather be right or be happy?” That “right” feeling is all about winning a battle, about making the other person wrong.
The “right” feeling I’m referring to is the feeling that you are good. You are wonderful. You are provided for. You are doing exactly what you need to be doing in this moment. You don’t have to fix anything outside of you, because you know it’s all working out for the best.
Disclaimer: This feeling did not come to me in one fell swoop the very first time I chose peace instead of my crazy ego energy. It comes in bits and pieces until you become willing enough to truly experience the mega-peace of God.
That can be maddening if you’re impatient like me, but it’s important to trust the process. Trust that your guide knows what it’s doing. It may take you through slowly because it wants to be gentle with you. It wants you to continue, so it’s not going to take all of your old feelings away at once. It’s slowly helping you strengthen your willingness so you can return to peace faster.
So call on your guide today to strengthen your willingness. Allow everything to seem wrong, and stand still. Choose peace, and allow yourself to remember that you are right.
“When you are tempted by the wrong voice, call on me to remind you how to heal by sharing my decision [for peace] and making it stronger.” (T-5.II.11:1)