Alright loves, it’s down to the last couple of days before my wedding. You know how I posted that Spirit is my wedding planner, and I’m not alone, and I don’t have to worry because it’s all figured out?

Yeah. 

I forgot about all that this past weekend. Energy and excitement were high, but so was my anxiety level. Little things kept throwing me off, and as I was driving to pick up some last minute decorations, I thought, “I am the WORST A Course in Miracles teacher ever. Look at meanxious, totally unwilling to surrender and trust. There’s no way that I should be teaching this!” 

In my lesson for the day, I received the perfect message (kick in the butt?) from Spirit. 

 In Lesson 186, Salvation of the world depends on me, it says: 

“All that we are asked to do is to accept our part in genuine humility, and not deny with self-deceiving arrogance that we are worthy. What is given us to do, we have the strength to do. Our minds are suited perfectly to the part assigned to us by One Who knows us well. […] if He deems us worthy, so we are. It is but arrogance that judges otherwise.” 


In this passage, Spirit is communicating that arrogance is not believing we can do it, but believing that we can’t do it, that we can’t fulfill our role. Deciding that we can’t complete the task God has given us means that we’re deciding that God isn’t right, we are. 
We basically try to tell Spirit, after it has called to us to be a light in the world, that we aren’t worthy. This is what I was doing this weekend! I was like: I can’t be the light of the world, I can’t be a teacher, because I’m still experiencing anxiety about my wedding. I don’t fully trust yet. I haven’t become perfect yet. So please stop telling me that the salvation of the world depends on me, and that I have to be a teacher!
Yet the lesson says that if God says we’re worthy, we are. Accepting this is humility, because we’re trusting that we’re worthy. We don’t have to do anything to prove it, we don’t have to figure out how we’re worthy. We just are. And we’re worthy enough to fulfill our function, to play our part in this world, to shine. 
We are ALL both students and teachers. We are all equipped worthy enough to learn AND teach. And nothing that we do or experience can change that. Experiencing anxiety and being a teacher of God are not mutually exclusive! 
But even deeper than my loss of faith in myself as a teacher was the fact that I let my worries about teaching stop me from taking my anxiety over decorations to Spirit. And this is what being a true teacher means! It is less about saying the perfect words, doing the perfect things, being perfect PERIOD, and more about being deeply honest about what we’re experiencing. When we experience worry, fear, or discomfort, we are honest with ourselves and Spirit and bring it forward for forgiveness. And with this, we are teachers. We are working miracles, experiencing peace, and healing the world with forgiveness. 


So when you read about how you’re a student and a teacher, don’t be scared. Know that experiencing anxiety and being a student and teacher of ACIM are not mutually exclusive. And don’t be fooled by that arrogant ego telling you you can’t do it. You are worthy. You CAN do it. You’re doing it already, every time you take a worry or whisper of fear to Spirit. We are ALL teachers. 

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I talk more about perfectionism and A Course in Miracles in a video I made for the virtual 2015 Miracle Share Conference! The theme of the Conference this year is Healing through the Workbook, and should be chock-full of amazing stories and teachings from Mighty Companions from around the world. I attended last year and absolutely LOVED it! After purchasing a ticket, you get access to the audio presentations even after the conference is over, so you can listen to your favorite presentations again and again. Check it out here!

Watercolor graphic from Angie Makes.

One thought on “Arrogance

  1. Love this post, Carly! It's such a peaceful lesson — we don't have to worry about whether or not we're perfect/smart/good/etc enough, we can just sit back and know that "somebody" already decided that we are. 🙂

    I also think that in the world and culture we live in, there's no way to avoid anxious moments. Especially when you're planning a wedding! I can't even imagine the extra layer of stress that brings with it. Haha I give anxiety its moment and let myself be stressed for a hot minute, and then take back the reigns and realize it's not that serious.

    Hope you have an amazing wedding!! xx

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